Saturday, October 27, 2007
Suddenly
this feels like I am preparing for my last school concert.
Nervous
and pressurising.
this feels like I am preparing for my last school concert.
Nervous
and pressurising.
sharkfin fullstopped here
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Now I wish
my computer blows up.
but I will miss MSN convos.
my computer blows up.
but I will miss MSN convos.
sharkfin fullstopped here
Friday, October 05, 2007
I have just witness how some people can be so distrustful of another, even though we have spent such a long time together. Don't you see the hard work and dedication put in by others? How can you pinpoint at him and eradicate all of his positive traits and conclude that he is an abominable, detestful person? On what grounds do you have the right to defame others, when all he did was a mindless careless mistake?
Maybe I am too trusting, or naive. However, this is just not the way that we should treat others, not someone whom you and I have known for so long. It really sends a chill down my spine when I read every word of your callous, heartless remarks. It really hurts, even as a friend of him.
Is friendship just so worthless? What is the point of building everything up from scratch, with all your heart, only to find that it crumbles overnight? Actually, you don't really care, do you?
No, I am not directing at any of my blog readers, I am sure none of the personnel involved would read this blog. that is why I am venting here, as I wish.
Maybe, it is me that have not seen enough.
Maybe I am too trusting, or naive. However, this is just not the way that we should treat others, not someone whom you and I have known for so long. It really sends a chill down my spine when I read every word of your callous, heartless remarks. It really hurts, even as a friend of him.
Is friendship just so worthless? What is the point of building everything up from scratch, with all your heart, only to find that it crumbles overnight? Actually, you don't really care, do you?
No, I am not directing at any of my blog readers, I am sure none of the personnel involved would read this blog. that is why I am venting here, as I wish.
Maybe, it is me that have not seen enough.
sharkfin fullstopped here
Monday, October 01, 2007
The admin never seems to produce a timetable that satisfy everyone. On certain days there are revisions all the way until 3pm in the afternoon, with just 1/2 break in between, or some day when we can come to school for a 1.5hours worth of lessons. Ironically, the time to travel to and fro actually took longer than that.
I am sure the admins have their own constraints.
If it is possible to make someone else better off without making someone else worse off, there is market failure.
Yes, we can see market failure in this case. Surely we will be better off mentally and physically if we have a more evenly spread timetable. The problem of market failure is made worse when some teachers confiscated the assignments of the students. Now the situations have been made worse. Many students may just go back into day dreaming, or chit chatting. Government failure? Sure it does.
Oh wait, this is actually a case of monopoly, or oligopoly (LT3, Audi, Classroom tutorial). P cannot be equal to MC without regulations.
=)
I am just whining.
Dad came back yesterday because of PRC's one week national day. As I expected, I can't run away on more future planning discussions with him.
I really, really, really, x10, hate making choices, especially when there are two choices of equal opportunity costs. I can never run away from the subject of "whether to do NS here" or else where, or just dao NS and go overseas and study.
In fact, I am actually studying overseas now.
Personally I don't really think it makes a difference whether to do NS now or just go overseas when my A levels finish. I really don't wish to abandon my friends here, more so when they are actually the reason for me staying on in Singapore (and the main reason why I do not want to go back to Taiwan to serve NS, there is no incentive to do so). If I decide to go overseas and study immediately after A levels, then, I will be some ang-mohs holding maybe Green card in order to escape NS? I am not particular in disfavour of NS. 2 years isn't that much of a waste of time, if you can think through what you really hope to do with the rest of your 40 years in your career. Surely we will become rusty and become stupid, but there are always ways when we can review the stuffs once we are over with the toughest part of the NS.
That is all under the assumption that I want to study in local university. Otherwise, there is no point in staying on IF I am going overseas to study. I would be better off if I conserve the 2 years and study abroad. However, I really have no urge to go overseas to study (and given my prelims results), I don't think it is possible to apply for a decent universities overseas. Even if I do, I am not sure if I am ready to give up the lifestyle in Singapore now.
Really, I don't like to adapt to new environment. I tend to forsee myself getting all loner in the new place and maybe got thrown aside and left to rot at one corner. I think I will tend to be homesick too =)
Maybe it is all the nightmares I have after I first come to Singapore that is haunting me.
My decision is going to affect a whole lot of things. My citizenship, my brother's citizenship, whether my bro will go China to study next year, whether this house gets sold and blah blah
Am I just thinking too much?
Or am I not thinking enough.
I am afraid of making the wrong choice.
I am at an utter loss.
I am sure the admins have their own constraints.
If it is possible to make someone else better off without making someone else worse off, there is market failure.
Yes, we can see market failure in this case. Surely we will be better off mentally and physically if we have a more evenly spread timetable. The problem of market failure is made worse when some teachers confiscated the assignments of the students. Now the situations have been made worse. Many students may just go back into day dreaming, or chit chatting. Government failure? Sure it does.
Oh wait, this is actually a case of monopoly, or oligopoly (LT3, Audi, Classroom tutorial). P cannot be equal to MC without regulations.
=)
I am just whining.
Dad came back yesterday because of PRC's one week national day. As I expected, I can't run away on more future planning discussions with him.
I really, really, really, x10, hate making choices, especially when there are two choices of equal opportunity costs. I can never run away from the subject of "whether to do NS here" or else where, or just dao NS and go overseas and study.
In fact, I am actually studying overseas now.
Personally I don't really think it makes a difference whether to do NS now or just go overseas when my A levels finish. I really don't wish to abandon my friends here, more so when they are actually the reason for me staying on in Singapore (and the main reason why I do not want to go back to Taiwan to serve NS, there is no incentive to do so). If I decide to go overseas and study immediately after A levels, then, I will be some ang-mohs holding maybe Green card in order to escape NS? I am not particular in disfavour of NS. 2 years isn't that much of a waste of time, if you can think through what you really hope to do with the rest of your 40 years in your career. Surely we will become rusty and become stupid, but there are always ways when we can review the stuffs once we are over with the toughest part of the NS.
That is all under the assumption that I want to study in local university. Otherwise, there is no point in staying on IF I am going overseas to study. I would be better off if I conserve the 2 years and study abroad. However, I really have no urge to go overseas to study (and given my prelims results), I don't think it is possible to apply for a decent universities overseas. Even if I do, I am not sure if I am ready to give up the lifestyle in Singapore now.
Really, I don't like to adapt to new environment. I tend to forsee myself getting all loner in the new place and maybe got thrown aside and left to rot at one corner. I think I will tend to be homesick too =)
Maybe it is all the nightmares I have after I first come to Singapore that is haunting me.
My decision is going to affect a whole lot of things. My citizenship, my brother's citizenship, whether my bro will go China to study next year, whether this house gets sold and blah blah
Am I just thinking too much?
Or am I not thinking enough.
I am afraid of making the wrong choice.
I am at an utter loss.
sharkfin fullstopped here