My room, my life
Saturday, August 25, 2007

This song is dedicated to my wonderful class, 06s6c, especially those that I am close to as well as my band mates who have been through much together, be it SYF or concerts. My friends who may not be the same class as me now but are as dear to me as it will be in the future. You guys ROCK!

Presenting, "You", by Audition, one of my favourite songs in Audition. Somehow, it fits what my limited vocabulary is unable to express.

Title: You
Artist: Audition

You're the only one

All I need
Is you here with me
Someone to depend on
when the rain falls down
All I know
Is the way I feel
Whenever you're around me
All the darkness turns to day

What'd you do to me?

You're the one and only
treasure in my life
A feelin' I can't hide from you
when you're the only one
You're the one and only
Pleasure in my life
A feelin' that goes on and on
When you're the only one

All my thoughts
They just run away
Move a little closer
Now we breathe as one
Take my hand
Let's fly away
To another place and time
Let the world just fade away

What'd you do to me?

You're the one and only
Treasure in my life
A feelin' I can't hide from you
When you're the only one
You're the one and only
Pleasure in my life
A feelin' that goes on and on
When you're the only one

What'd you do to me?
You made me feel so alive
A feeling deep inside

What'd you do to me?

You're the one and only
Treasure in my life
A feelin' I can't hide from you
when you're the only one
You're the one and only
Pleasure in my life
A feelin' that goes on and on

You're the one and only
Treasure in my life
A feelin' I can't hide from you
when you're the only one
You're the one and only
Pleasure in my life
A feelin' that goes on and on
When you're the only one

You're the only one

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4:40 PM

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Second thursday that lasts all the way to 630pm.

I am totally tired, exhausted, sianed and emo-ed.

I have not been in a good mood recently, probably because of the fact that we are going to leave each other very soon.

I shant elaborate further about my history, had a good chat with junquan today during Econs about Chinese High culture and being the last of the top school or being the top of a not so good school.

Partly I am saying that I am deprived of chance to really groom myself, even though Honcw emphasised again and again on how much the school offers to groom the students.

Yeah, groom the best mah

I have spent my 4 years in secondary school, jaded, waiting, and finally I woke up, that I let all these by, WASTED.

A period when it is the best time to cultivate character, to inculcate values, principles.

JC life is short, I did something, more meaningful other than attending classes. It is not a huge step, but it is a step, from my enclosed life back then.

I don't know how much I regret not choosing something I really like, instead of something that I should.

Perhaps, if I had been stronger, I would have perservered and I would be a changed person today.

Who knows?

I can't say what I am now is reall what I want, but as far as my life has lead me, it is the best I can make out of it.

Maybe, if I have gone to a different school, I would be a totally different person, with different personality, maybe no more the lame lame duno what to say feeling out of sitatution kind of guy, maybe it would be better, or worse.

Nevertheless, all that matters now, is how I am gonna continue my life from here.

I am, actually, quite fortunate to have with me, a bunch of friends from all over the differnet schools in Singapore. In a way, their cultures have influenced me, away from the fact that Hwa Chong is the centre of everything.

Today, I am about to graduate from HC, looking back, the people around me, haven't changed. The people that I know, are still here, the people that I do not know, probably I still won't know them when I graduate.

IP, O levels, there is something more to saving that half a year to do sabbaticals which claimed to be enriching.

Perhaps, it is just me who have the myopic view.

It is time to open up, what you are gonna face, is a whole lot of people from many backgrounds, disciplines, character.

I am not sure if I am ready, but I will do my best to get to know more things, more people.

Before that, A levels first.

That is the punch line, yeah?

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8:43 PM

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

I failed miserably.

... ...

The hole is bottomless

I struggled to climb out of it,

but I slipped each time

Falling deeper and deeper before I can get hold of myself.

I am losing sanity

What am I

Amongst the vast population out there

I can't be more ordinary.

I look upon others

There is this gap between you and I

that I can't reach

I struggled

I tried

Each time.

Only to realise

The widening gap.

How loser

How pathetic.

The more I know

the more I do not know.

Ignorant about ignorance

Nothing more than a laughing stalk.

Waves come crushing

the winds are taunting.

Are you going to be a bean stalk

that sways with the wind

or an Oak

that stands firmly, rooted

To where it should be.

This hole is bottomless

I struggled

and slipped

falling deeper and deeper.

This internal struggle

continues

Till the end of time

or the end of my life.

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3:03 PM

Monday, August 20, 2007

Monday

Sometimes I am amazed how easily I am affected by the mood of the others.

Maybe it is that I think too much for the others, instead of myself.

It's gonna be the last school week that there will be official lessons.

The same contradictory feeling when SYF draws nearer. You can't wait for SYF to be over, but deep inside you, you hope this never ends.

Life is full of regrets.

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8:26 PM

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Am I caring too much?

Or I can't just give a damn.

I ought to banish myself,

eternally.

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9:10 PM


Intellectual Property rights, honour this right, be HIP, Honour Intellectual Property. This is a common phrase that we see when we go to the cinema to catch or a movie. It is no wonder that IP is such a hot issue now. Thanks to the convenience of techonology, world-wide information is just at our finger tips with a single click on our personal computers. At the same time, the Internet has been a useful tool to distribute information, data, photos, songs, much more easily than ever. High speed broadband connection further enhances the usefulness of the Internet Era, and together with this convenience, there is an increasing trend of distribution of illegal media such as MP3s, movies, and now, Japanese animes.

Currently, about two thousand illegal anime downloaders are blacklisted for downloading licensed Japanese cartoon such as Bleach and Inuyasha. Internet Service Providers (ISPs) are forced to release customer details to Odex and offenders of the Intellectual Property rights (IP) will be fined up to $5000 and a maximum jail term up to 6 months.

The hearing between Pacific Internet and Odex representative will be held next Thursday. Most likely, one thounsand more offenders using Pacific Internet will be shortlisted as illegal anime downloaders.

Odex claims the sales of licensed animes have declined up to 70% since 2001. The company blames the loss in revenue on illegal anime downloaders. Therefore, the company sought compensation from these anime downloaders. Those who downloads illegally will be charged fines up to 5k.

Personally, I believe that downloading of licensed anime can be considered as a criminal offence under Singapore law 9Chapter 27 of the Intellectual Property Offences Sentencing Practice) which states that copyright infringement is a serious offence and one of dishonesty for it steals from the true owner of this copyright. Illegal downloaders should be punished. However, the means of punishing should be based on the target group that are being punished, in this case, mostly students.

How can one expect a student to pay up the fine of up to 5000? Some can argue that the parents should be responsible for their own children and therefore, they would naturally, in this case, punished together with the child. However, most parents are mostly unaware of the fact that their child downloads illegal anime on the net. It is justified to place such fine on the child that it will be the parents who have to pay in the end? There is definitely other way round to deal with these students. For example, StarHub issued warning letters to users who are found or deemed to be using residential broadband to download illegal applications or media off the net. The same can be done to the students as well. Therefore, I wonder if Odex really thinks that they can boost their sales just by imposing this fine on students?

Secondly, I do not think that Odex should completely blame illegal anime downloaders on the decline of their sales. I would forsee that students who are deterred from downloading licensed animes will just go without watching the anime. Many watch these cartoon for the relaxation from their tight school days. There are many other means that the students are able to achieve the same goal that watching Japanese anime would. Therefore, by issuing this compensation would actually backfire the company. It will result in resentment of many other anime fans who thinks that such punishments are unfair to many people. They may attempt to boycott the products of the company and thus a further decline in the sales volume.

True enough that those who distribute or download the anime ought to be punished. However, the company should not just assume that subscribers are the ones who download the anime. For example, there are many places that have wireless internet connections such as some Kopitiam and McDonalds. One can just download using these wireless internet services and there is no way that anyone can find out they downloaded these anime, unless their PC is inspected. The same goes for homes with wireless internet installed. It could have been the neighbour next door who taps this internet source and download the illegal media, or it could have been your guests who used your internet. all in all, I believe that one cannot simply assumes that the subscribers are the ones who download anime.

Angry anime fans are actually pooling resources and manpower to go against Odex by legal means. However, I believe that there is definitely a better way out of this war between the two disputing party. Some even threatened with "death sentence" on the director of Odex because they think that Odex is just earning easy money. Assuming 3000 people are notified to pay up, that would be 3000x$3500 = 10million singapore dollars. It is no wonder that some are very skeptical about the true motive behind the sueing of anime downloaders. Whether it is true or not, IP rights is definitely abusable, with the convenience that the Internet has brought us.

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10:09 AM

Sunday, August 12, 2007

My decision to join Band in college is a very sudden and unexpected one. Never did I realise the experiences and skills that I have gained throughout the one and a half year in band.

I can still vividly remember Terence Phay introducing me as the "Eat Sharkfin" the some of the band seniors that time. I can't really remember who the senior was but it was clear that it is in the 4F music room, I was with YueKai and Lynette then.

They decided not to join band in the end, while I stayed together with my 4 official percussion senior (while the other one is "part-time")

One year ago, or not exactly one year ago, we had the Band Farewell 06'

It wasn't too sad, I was more like enjoying myself with the food and all the song dedications to different seniors and 06' batch.

It really didn't occur to me that it is Band Farewell 07' already, not this fast.
I didn't receive the invitation on the day itself, in fact, they gave me the invitation when I enter the function room itself, how efficient my juniors are =)

The farewell did not turn out to be as sad as I thought it would be, afterall, we are the one who are gonna leave the band, other then the usual photo taking and the more emo videos made my the juniors and the seniors, the program is rather, in a joyous mood.

Ai Wen and I met up earlier just to get all the stuffs that we lagged did not have the time to buy despite the constant delay of the farewell from 2 weeks before National Day holiday. I guess it is probably a good time to actually hold the event at this late =P

Upon arrival, we are greeted with a warm welcome from our juniors, probably because we are one of the last few seniors to arrive, and maybe they are feeling guilty for not sending out that invitation on time? :p

They presented me the first present of the day - the invitation card. =.=

Everyone tucked in for food, as usual Ai Wen ate the most, Melissa didn't eat at all, Jie Han is the slowest eater, and Da Xian is spilling his drink (and food) all over his plate.

The rest are quite decent when it comes to eating =)

The program finally starts (after lagging so long) after 8. The J1 video is hilarious, with some pun on purpose througout the video. We really have some natural comedians like Wei Xing and Ernest in Band, just to name a few actually. Sometimes it feels more like a 搞笑团体 than a Band. Nevertheless, I can really see their efforts and attempt to make the video interesting and unique in the J1's way. The J2's video featured the same pun (oops, feeling kinda guilty for the people involved =X) and some other interesting aspects of the J2s.

Now I remembered, I didn't see ccb in the video.

Oh yes, now I remembered that there is a damn zai magician in our J1 junior, Harapan! Haha, I seriously think his tricks are damn zai, really don't lose to those professionals! And I think some girls got freaked out because it is just so unbelievable and jaw-dropping! Haha, yeah I think he is really interested, and probably determined, to master the art of card magic. Heh, I would say he totally looks like one :P

I told you the band is more than just a band already.

ooh yes, back to the program. We had the games activity, and thanks to the vast number of people in our senior section, poor Ai Wen has to play the games 2 times. First is the eating competition (How evil after the sumptuous dinner right?) nothing really interesting, so.. FF.. second game required 2 seniors from each section from the opposite gender(yes who else is gonna be the other senior other than me to represent the section). The female senior will be blind folded and one junior from the section will hide a lemon somewhere on the guy (anywhere). I didn't get a tough job, the lemon is right under my armpit, hehe. Not too difficult to find, along with some cheating here and there =P wasn't too malu, but quite an experience for me actually.

Had the usual hand over, exchange presents, and Ai Wen's favourite phototaking session. Again, I failed my mission to actually want to take photo with every J2 in my batch. hmm, I guess group photos will have to make do..

Nothing too emotional actually, I thought I would at least feel a sense of reluctance to part. Not that I would splurt out phrases like "good riddance", I guess it is just that it has been a long time since the last time the juniors actually met the seniors in "official" gatherings like band pracs, it is more like a reunion dinner.

Sounds like a dull farewell? Heh sorry if I can't describe the event in greater and more vivid details. Yeah my English is powderful. I guess it is really back to studying for prelims, for As, for our future.

HCBAND, I WILL MISS YOU.

Good riddance ;)

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1:53 PM

Sunday, August 05, 2007

AVRIL LAVIGNE - Sk8er Boi

He was a boy
She was a girl
Can I make it anymore obvious?
He was a punk
And she did ballet
What morea can I say?
He wanted her
She'd never tell
Secretely she wanted him as well
And all of her friends
Stuck up their nose
And they had a problem with his baggy clothes


He was a sk8er boi she said see ya later boi
He wasn't good enough for her
She had a pretty face but her head was up in space
She needed to come back down to earth


Five years from now she sits at home feeding the baby she's all alone
She turns on TV and guess who she sees
Sk8er boi rocking up MTV
She calls up her friends
They already know
And they've all got tickets to see his show.
She tags along, stands in the crowd. Looks up at the man that she turned down


He was a sk8er boi she said see ya later boi
He wasn't good enough for her
Now he's a superstar slammin on his guitar to show pretty face what he's worth
He was a sk8er boi she said see ya later boi
He wasn't good enough for her
Now he's a superstar slammin on his guitar to show pretty face what he's worth


Sorry girl but you missed out
Well tough luck that boi's mine now
We are more than just good friends
This is how the story ends
Too
bad that you couldn't see
see the man that boi could be
There is more than meets the eye
I see the soul that is inside


He's just a boi
and I'm just a girl
Can I make it anymore obvious?
We are in love
Haven't you heard how we rock eachother's world?


I met the sk8er boi I said see ya later boi
I'll be backstage after the show
I'll be at the studio
singing the song he wrote about a girl he use to know
I met the sk8er boi I said see ya later boi
I'll be backstage after the show
I'll be at the studio
singing the song he wrote about a girl he use to know

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9:46 PM

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Watched two videos during CT today, first on the orientation video, second on a speech delivered by an alumnus of Hwa Chong student. Both are really inspiring video for me.

The orientation video brought back memories about the first three months, when the old 6C guys were around. Some of them are still in school but in other classes while some have left for other schools deemed more suited for them.

Friends who have gone to other school aside, even those who have been transferred out of the class, seem to be just a normal hi-bye thing or even some passerby X in the school campus. Yes we shared the same joy, same class, same laughter during the first 3 months, at least for me, I thought it was fun, everyone is, yes really, everyone.

Maybe those were really the carefree days, teachers dont really care if you don't do tutorials (with the exception of Miss Deborah How) and maybe some teachers who are stricter. Generally, pace of life was much more relaxing and enjoyable then.

People come and go, soon my current friends in the class joined the class of 06S6C. It was definitely another unique experience. They are totally a bunch of crazy people with crazy behaviours (as they are still, now, too). Contrary to the more Chinese speaking environment in the first 3 months, the change is drastic, but not unadaptable. They are the more playful and cheerful type, unlike the quiet and guai guai type. They are more outspoken and daring, unlike the conserved and peaceful kind.

That is the change, change for the better or the worse, there is no telling, but definitely I have tried to make myself most useful and helpful to adapt to the change.

There are really a lot of insights I gained from interacting with students outside of the old Chinese High pool of friends. As one who is generally more conserved and not-so-sociable, it was really something that is new and out of the norm of the Chinese High School culture. I know that there are many other more types of people out there who are of a wide variety, characters, definitely not all elites but one thing for sure - they are all special in their own way.

I really wonder how my life would be without them as my classmates.

It may be just merely 1 and half years, there is much more than that.

Yan Min told me he thinks that he can get very emotional on the graduation day itself, I think I will be the same, as well. Never been through a proper graduation since Primary School, the one and only Junior College Graduation will probably be the most memorable, and most saddening part of the whole 2 years in JC.

Will we still be in touch with one another down our paths?

Only we can answer that question for ourselves.

\\

On a brighter note, the second video today by the alumnus is indeed hilarious and insightful. It is about learning beyong the syllabus, correlating with people, working with people that you are not familiar with. Thinking is a skill that the whole of the education system is driving at. The syllabus we learn may or may not be of relevance to our future career. Most likely it may not be relevent, but one of the take home points of the whole education system is to develope our thinking skills, another would be the working with peers, ability to interact with a variety of people in the working environment. These are the more important skills that we should master, or at least, be aware of when working in the society. Working is a complete different experience from education, but the skill required is similar - your thinking skill, your correlation skills. Cognitive skill is not to be undermined as well. Rather than the content, I believe it is more of the skills that we learn through learning, CCA, other commitments and dealing and solving daily problems face when interacting with the others.

It is no wonder full time muggers are despised.

The school is like a mini working society on its own, we face the challenges we will face in the workforce, but on a different level and a more micro scale. We are allowed to make mistakes here because we will be forgiven in most cases.

The society is merciless.

I better stop here now. There are really some stuffs I wish to blog it out but words just don't come when I stare at this blogger screen. Work hard guys, we can do it, yeah!

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8:28 PM

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