Finally it is a 4 day break before the conclusion of the final physics paper.

Some of the physics peep + Terence Heng went for lunch after the deadly maths paper. Went to Junction 8 to eat Ajisen and sat in there to talk for a long time, been a long time since we have actually sat down and crapped for that long.

After that xinwei audrey ben and I went to elicia house(with elicia, duh -_-) to play mahjong. I couldn't really play as much as I want to because my brother reminded me that I have English tuition yesterday afternoon. So I have to leave them earlier.. but it was fun, even though we did not really play money. Just playing for fun =). I would have loved to play money because I think I won more rounds than I have lost. haha, but at least I got rewards for winning.. some dark chocolates =)

Decides to slack off today, after getting through 4 consecutive days of blocks. It is indeed a blessing that A levels is not going to be as packed as this, but also it stretches the length of our pain too.. but papers like the maths and chem were really gruelling.. and draining. I remember during the last minute of the maths paper I was using my GC to start calculating

100 - ... - ... - ...

and after all that minuses, i got what I want.

50

Yeah, great.

Maths paper is difficult =( but also I did not put in enough practises in la..

Nevermind, there is still Prelims.. and A levels, make all the stupid mistakes that I can make now so I won't do them again in A levels.

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Hmm I think I have really run out of ideas to blog.. maybe its the lazy afternoon syndrome. Cannot get Emo enough, lol. slept too late last night and now i am feeling tired.. but must tell myself not to sleep.. if not I would not be able to sleep tonight.. oh well

alright shall play some games and relax.. tata guys.

2:19 PM

I shall take some time off to blog.

Fifth day since I return to singapore. Some things happen, while some things need to happen but did not happen.

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One of the few years I spend my birthday in Singapore. Allother birthdays are celebrated overseas except this year. Not a bad thing actually, I really enjoyed myself on the special day, even though blocks are near.

Really thank my friends who took the time off to accompany me during my birthday.

and all other well wishes that my classmates, my friends, my CCA mates, my cousins.

I don't know if it is due to the fact that my birthday happens to fall during the month of school holidays, or because now is the block test period.

Maybe because I am overseas, wait, do they even know if I am overseas?

but it really tells me something, and I really feel thankful to those who wished me happy birthday, belated or early.

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Reading Terence Heng's blog entry on the handphone and how technology changes our daily approach to everybody, I feel the same way as him.

Just how many of us used to remember our friend's home number, not one not two but like many of your friends. There was no such thing as MSN or Yahoo Messenger.

Even before telephones became common, writing letters is the way to communicate across space. It is much more emotional and "heart-to-heart" when you read letters handwritten by someone else. Comparing that to E-mails now, instant messaging. These are block letters shown by the computer screen. Fundamentally, they are nothing more than just "0"s and "1"s.

Yes it is more convenient, it is more efficient and cost-savings. It is what drives the potential output of an economy - to be as efficient on a unit resources given to you. The more efficient you are, you will be able to produce more with a unit resources and thus more economical.

But what is the opportunity cost of this communication advancement?

We cannot completely deny the fact that improvements in the efficiency of communication brings about economical welfare. However, it must be noted that it comes with a sacrifice of face-to-face interaction. Many more teenagers now spend more time facing the retangular computer screen, chatting online as if they are talking face to face - just because it is much easier to chat online, words are delivered but not tone and feeling. You can hide yourself effectively behind the MSN window - nobody will know what you exactly is doing when he is talking to you. In addition, you can just ignore that person if you don't feel like talking to him.

Communication technology promotes globalisation, but widens humanity.

So near yet so far

11:26 AM

Only if there is 1 week more.

Everything would be so much easier.

But this also shows,

how naive this kind of thinking is.

12:02 AM

Yeah I am back.

Back from some carrots land.

June holidays is too short.

Band, China, daily routine stuffs.

I have 4 days to study physics, econs and maths.

Not 5 days because I am going out today =)

Today shall be the only relaxing day.

Yeah, blog another time.

9:31 AM

Enjoy the feeling before your concert, because you will miss it once the concert is over"
- Moo
Before the concert, I was totally drained from all the practise, feeling stressed out that I was not going to make it (breakdown-free) on the actual concert day. Sometimes even feeling wanting to run away from it at times, taking a break from all of it.

Now that it is really over, I am, again, loss of a word to describe my feeling.

Partly due to the fact that this is gonna be the last year, of JC years, to get to perform in such an interesting band. The J2s as well as the J1s this year absolutely rock my soul and shown me many different aspects of life that an ordinary class room lesson would not have been able to deliver. Ranging from day to night practise for the Percussion Ensemble 06, to my virgin performance in Capriccio XXII. My first and only overseas outing to Thailand with my CCA mates. Day after day practises of the same pieces for SYF judging in May 11 2007. To the end of Capriccio XXIII with a loud bazooka bang and I have to wipe the Timpani after that. which marks the end of my 2 years life in performing arts, officially.

Just like the concert itself, my life in band is short, but sweet and enriching.

I never know CCA can bring such sense of fulfillment and satisfaction while enjoying myself all along. To really enjoy what you do, is important in order to perform up to your maximum potential. Though there are bound to be ups and downs during the course of the work in you put in, if you put your heart and soul into it, people can feel it, we can sense it, too.

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My utmost gratitude to everyone who has come to support me (I can only name those who came to look for me after that, I can't see you all from the stage =x) My classmates, Jun Quan, Marcus, Audrey, Xinwei, Yan Yin. My friends Ying Qun, Lekchia. Junkai who sent the SMS of best of luck. Jiawei and Yanmin for supporting me (from home) due to various reasons which prevented them from coming on that night.

And everyone who has come and watch Capriccio XXIII.

Not forgetting Teng'en, Bangky, Cheryl, See Wah, Sharine who wrote to us cards and little tibits to soothe our nerves before the concert.

And all of the other band members for listening to our ensemble after every band practise.

And councillors who helped with the stage and backstage coordination.

PQ and Mong, the wonderful emcees

Our conductors! Mr Lim and Mr Leng.

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One more event to go, Farewell 07, by then, it will really be the farewell.

Till then guys and girls, you ROCK.

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9:40 AM

The night before concert.

I can't describe my feeling.

It is a

Lamong feeling.

10:50 PM

I simply broke down today while rehearsing for the percussion ensemble. I don't know if I am going to make it. It seems that I already have no time, yet people are telling me to take a break from it.

It is a bet, it is a gamble. To seize the time to practise, or to let go of it for a moment and recharge myself.

I know what I need to do, I know what must be fixed but my body just gives up on me.

Really appreciate all who have listen to me while I rant about all these crap mindlessly. It just shows how much people around you are actually concerned and worried for you.

Yes I am stressed. I don't want my weakness to affect the others who can do it, others who would be better off without me.

I guess I will be better the next practise, the final practise.

The final and the last ever sectionals/combined I am going to have, ever.

10:35 PM

Sometimes you feel so helpless

that you want to do something

but you are not powerful enough to do it.

Am I too demanding of myself,

such that if I can't do it,

I would rather not do it,

then to embarass myself.

But I am not giving up right from the start.

I will give it all of my best,

all of my heart.

Unless all these do not change the outcome

I will admit that I am not good enough.

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I am really not good enough to be perfect, but I will try my best to push the limits.

One of my friends in band once told me, "Having no experience is not an excuse not to do well in any performance. Everyone starts out anew and it would all depend on your attitude to determine how far you would go."

I am pretty happy with my progress. I have achived what I want to when all these first started out. Experiences, laughters, sorrows. All these would end, in 5 days time. I am sure, I would hope that everything can restart, embrace myself in the experience and the feeling, as an amature player once again.

I may feel so out of breath, so tired after all the practises. However, I will soon, look back at day after day practises as beautiful memories.

shao emo ah..

8:35 PM