Monday, August 28, 2006
"yeah. its never too late to do anything! at least u joined band now and not years later right?"
- Jia Wei
I have never ever regreted joining now, just that I regret why didn't I join years ago. If I had, I would have (or maybe) picked up a new instrument and met many other people who has the same interest as me, that is, playing a music piece well and giving the audience the best we can.
The exhiliration of delivering our hearts and souls to the audience after spending hours and hours practising together as well as a section is still fresh in my heads. Listening to the recordings now reminds me of what had we had gone through, even though I was a rookie then. Probably it is because of the fact that I am still learning gives me the most different experiences. Catching up with the skills, sight reading, strokings, spending almost everyday in sch until 8 to practise in main band or sectionals. Grand seniors coming back to cheer us up. All these converge as one and weaved the most unforgettable part of my life.
talking abt today, wah, marathons of tests and lessons is really driving me all stressed out. and rehearsal till 8pm, damn tired now, and i only completed my chem spa skill A that is due tomorrow. I am going to sleep soon.. very tired.. nevertheless, today's rehearsal is zai, we get to see other performances earlier than the others, and the full version of the skit put up by the new teachers in HC. (i say its the full version coz they are going to cut some parts) The skit is zai so everyone dont pon. haha, come and watch the performances. =)
oh ya, I think our performance is quite zai too :p just that first time we tried out the full run there are several stumbles, probably because we haven been up on the stage, alone, just the J1s. neverthelesss, we redeemed ourselves and put up a much better performance in the second run. Together with the visual effects and some gimmicks, i think it is more than just an ordinary performance. You shall just see it during the teacher's day itself =)
ok, enough blogging, have to sleep before i sleep in front of com.. good night!
- Jia Wei
I have never ever regreted joining now, just that I regret why didn't I join years ago. If I had, I would have (or maybe) picked up a new instrument and met many other people who has the same interest as me, that is, playing a music piece well and giving the audience the best we can.
The exhiliration of delivering our hearts and souls to the audience after spending hours and hours practising together as well as a section is still fresh in my heads. Listening to the recordings now reminds me of what had we had gone through, even though I was a rookie then. Probably it is because of the fact that I am still learning gives me the most different experiences. Catching up with the skills, sight reading, strokings, spending almost everyday in sch until 8 to practise in main band or sectionals. Grand seniors coming back to cheer us up. All these converge as one and weaved the most unforgettable part of my life.
talking abt today, wah, marathons of tests and lessons is really driving me all stressed out. and rehearsal till 8pm, damn tired now, and i only completed my chem spa skill A that is due tomorrow. I am going to sleep soon.. very tired.. nevertheless, today's rehearsal is zai, we get to see other performances earlier than the others, and the full version of the skit put up by the new teachers in HC. (i say its the full version coz they are going to cut some parts) The skit is zai so everyone dont pon. haha, come and watch the performances. =)
oh ya, I think our performance is quite zai too :p just that first time we tried out the full run there are several stumbles, probably because we haven been up on the stage, alone, just the J1s. neverthelesss, we redeemed ourselves and put up a much better performance in the second run. Together with the visual effects and some gimmicks, i think it is more than just an ordinary performance. You shall just see it during the teacher's day itself =)
ok, enough blogging, have to sleep before i sleep in front of com.. good night!
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Saturday, August 26, 2006
Its 12.18am.. really dont feel like sleeping now..
reached home at 11pm.. just because we took our time at the kfc and the journey home is really long.. even thogh 186 come really fast tonight..
so, ya, six of us, xin wei ben audrey yan min jun quan and I were at the BBQ held by the athena faculty. We did not pay for it, so we can only like take one or two pieces of stuffs here and there and eat, haha, so we decide to go bukit timah plaza to eat kfc, as suggested by audrey. As usual, taking our own sweet time because we got distracted so much by just moving from the canteen to the bus stop.. by the time we reach bukit timah plaza, its already 9? or a bit earlier than that.
Before the BBQ thinggie, had band prac. Now coming to think of it, why did I join?
I also not sure, but I know I had wanted to join. Being able to play some nice music, I think it is very self-fulfilling. But, I think percussion is really very slack. It is all the blowing instruments that are the guys handling the toughest job to make the music alive. I really wanted to learn a new instrument, but probably not horns.. haha, i thought thrombone and flutes are pretty cool, saxophone is not bad too!
But then, I only blame myself for joining only at this point of time. I could have chosen band as the CCA in secondary school, maybe I will be happier there, but you never know. I heard that high school band is tough too.. and they say like JC band is slack.. maybe coz high sch is military? you have to memorise the scores and movements and play.. but in military band percussion will play a more important role.. haha.. ya, so, now we are in the background now, no one really notices us. It cant even be heard sometimes.
no use regretting, having only 1 year to catch up with the rest, I have to work doubly hard, or even triply! In a three man team of J1 percussion, the fate of next year's SYF will be in our hands. Whether or not we achieve, will be dependent on each and everyone of us. It is going to be challenging, but I am sure I will face the tough fight ahead and do my very best to support the whole band.
Oh ya, all the best to everyone for the upcoming promotional examinations! Time is running short so buck up on revision! Don't think too much, just do it! Good luck everyone!
ok.. now I feel tired.. 12.35am, gonna say goodbye to this week soon! Week 10 coming next, and september "holidays". Life is hectic, but we will all pull through, as long as we put the heart into it, stay focused and concentrate! Everything will turn out fine!
Alright, good night!
reached home at 11pm.. just because we took our time at the kfc and the journey home is really long.. even thogh 186 come really fast tonight..
so, ya, six of us, xin wei ben audrey yan min jun quan and I were at the BBQ held by the athena faculty. We did not pay for it, so we can only like take one or two pieces of stuffs here and there and eat, haha, so we decide to go bukit timah plaza to eat kfc, as suggested by audrey. As usual, taking our own sweet time because we got distracted so much by just moving from the canteen to the bus stop.. by the time we reach bukit timah plaza, its already 9? or a bit earlier than that.
Before the BBQ thinggie, had band prac. Now coming to think of it, why did I join?
I also not sure, but I know I had wanted to join. Being able to play some nice music, I think it is very self-fulfilling. But, I think percussion is really very slack. It is all the blowing instruments that are the guys handling the toughest job to make the music alive. I really wanted to learn a new instrument, but probably not horns.. haha, i thought thrombone and flutes are pretty cool, saxophone is not bad too!
But then, I only blame myself for joining only at this point of time. I could have chosen band as the CCA in secondary school, maybe I will be happier there, but you never know. I heard that high school band is tough too.. and they say like JC band is slack.. maybe coz high sch is military? you have to memorise the scores and movements and play.. but in military band percussion will play a more important role.. haha.. ya, so, now we are in the background now, no one really notices us. It cant even be heard sometimes.
no use regretting, having only 1 year to catch up with the rest, I have to work doubly hard, or even triply! In a three man team of J1 percussion, the fate of next year's SYF will be in our hands. Whether or not we achieve, will be dependent on each and everyone of us. It is going to be challenging, but I am sure I will face the tough fight ahead and do my very best to support the whole band.
Oh ya, all the best to everyone for the upcoming promotional examinations! Time is running short so buck up on revision! Don't think too much, just do it! Good luck everyone!
ok.. now I feel tired.. 12.35am, gonna say goodbye to this week soon! Week 10 coming next, and september "holidays". Life is hectic, but we will all pull through, as long as we put the heart into it, stay focused and concentrate! Everything will turn out fine!
Alright, good night!
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
After saying so much, what is it that I really want to say?
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Imaging you are sitting in a train.. your own train
Sometimes this train slows down at a stop, some people come up in your carriage. Your train becomes filled with people, with laughter, with noise.
At different stops, people come and go. You will realised that some will vanish from your train, while some will accompany you throughout the whole journey.
When you sit in the train alone, train seems to travel faster if you enjoy the sceneries.
Yet, when the train goes underground, it seems no end to the tunnel.
The duration of the journey is all the same, yet the percetion of 'time' is dependent whether you enjoy the views you can see from the window of the train, or when you spent the journey chitchating with your friends.
"Why are you walking so slowly?"
What is the rush? Can't spend some time looking at the people around you in the train? Thinking that looking at the scenery outside the train window is just a waste of time?
During a camp, everyone's hands are filled with camping equipments and other camping necessity. However, there is just one bunch of raw bananas that no one else has anymore space to hold or take in hands. Everyone decides to leave it behind and continue the journey. The instructor ordered everyone to stay behind. He said "If the banana is not ripe, then let's wait here until it ripens and we will eat it and continue our journey."
"We spent time waiting unknowningly a lot of time. We spend time waiting for bus, we spend time waiting for computer to start and do our work, we wait for "time" so that we can eat lunch, we spend so much time waiting, so why can't we wait for bananas to ripe?"
Life is just like a running train, it doesnt wait for you to respond to the scenery outside the train window. It will just slip past you, without you even noticing. The sceneries, are just like bits and pieces of your lifetime experiences.
Sometimes this train slows down at a stop, some people come up in your carriage. Your train becomes filled with people, with laughter, with noise.
At different stops, people come and go. You will realised that some will vanish from your train, while some will accompany you throughout the whole journey.
When you sit in the train alone, train seems to travel faster if you enjoy the sceneries.
Yet, when the train goes underground, it seems no end to the tunnel.
The duration of the journey is all the same, yet the percetion of 'time' is dependent whether you enjoy the views you can see from the window of the train, or when you spent the journey chitchating with your friends.
"Why are you walking so slowly?"
What is the rush? Can't spend some time looking at the people around you in the train? Thinking that looking at the scenery outside the train window is just a waste of time?
During a camp, everyone's hands are filled with camping equipments and other camping necessity. However, there is just one bunch of raw bananas that no one else has anymore space to hold or take in hands. Everyone decides to leave it behind and continue the journey. The instructor ordered everyone to stay behind. He said "If the banana is not ripe, then let's wait here until it ripens and we will eat it and continue our journey."
"We spent time waiting unknowningly a lot of time. We spend time waiting for bus, we spend time waiting for computer to start and do our work, we wait for "time" so that we can eat lunch, we spend so much time waiting, so why can't we wait for bananas to ripe?"
Life is just like a running train, it doesnt wait for you to respond to the scenery outside the train window. It will just slip past you, without you even noticing. The sceneries, are just like bits and pieces of your lifetime experiences.
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Friday, August 18, 2006
Just had the most relaxing night these few days. Finally I can watch my animes without worrying that I need to study for maths or I need to complete my physics tutorials. for that 30mins, I really feel that there is no more work that is bothering me and I can do whatever I want. But now its over, lets face the reality.
I have read quite a lot of blogs.. ranging from joyful to unhappiness. Studying can be joyful and fulfilling, while some others deem it as personally undesirable and imposes a negative externality on oneself, that is, unhappiness and frustration.
Isn't it just life? And since everyone that we know of now are mostly going through the 12years of education. You can spend the 12 years of your life enjoying what you really like to do, hang out with your classmates and friends, enjoy the process of enriching yourself with knowledge of your interest. Alternatively, you can waste the 12years cursing and swearing at how suck the education system is, or be a victim of this education system in singapore and not do anything out of it.
If the things given to you are the way it is, the least you could do is make the best out of it. We can complain all we want but at the end of the day, you are the one making the difference out of the education system in singapore. You don't have to be perfect in everything, nor be the top scorer of the school. With this education system, you need to find out what your interest is and really is. We are provided with many different kinds of CCAs to try out and see where our interests lie.
I am seriously thinking that I am talking like some pro-singapore education system person. Honestly, I am practically fine anything.. Unless it is really something I dont like.. Else I think I am "easy going" and fine with anything.
"easy going" makes you think that I have a good character right? Haha.. I think it is just that I am lazy to make decisions and I, hate to make decision. I have repeated that a lot of times already.. I confess that I am one who dont really have much of my personal opinion, like, always going with the flow. A very sui bian kind of person..
Ok enough self commenting. Sometimes I dont really understand myself also..
On a brighter note, today's band prac is kind of a funny but also quite sian one.. went slightly late today.. but it doesnt really make a diff since they are just preparing for warm ups, did the snare part today instead of the usual bass drum in the morning. I am actually quite proud of myself, now that i can play a more stable speed, though sometimes still slightly off, especially changing of the strokes, ya but overall, I made improvements! haha, :D
Then after that is tuning.. its super boring for percussion so I went downstairs and take my cards and we started playing outside the percussion room (which is at the back of the music room). Played some games before Teng En (our dear student conductor) came and ask us go in. and its like we are super scared coz later he confiscate or what.. haha, but i think he got see lor.. just that he didn't really want to say anything..
ya then after that is going through of the songs and sight reading of some new pieces, so skip.
Went home at about 720+pm, met damien (the only J1 tuba player now) as usual. Exchanged some ku shui on how it can be boring to be always playing the baseline and accompaniment all the time. I think percussion is not so bad.. sometimes mallets get to solo and play the melody.. its the auxilaries (cymbals, etc) that is more boring.. but, everyone instrument has its own role to play in a band. Without tuba and drums, everything feels weird because there is no baseline to refer to when you play. Without auxiliary, it just feels that something is missing from the whole piece. It is the mixing of accompaniment and the melody that makes the whole piece complete and nice.. er, duh? seems that I am repeating something obvious?
sorry for all the rambling of events and my use of english.. Since its a blog so i dont really want to care about my english and whatever topic sentence there is. Apologise in advance to dear readers of my blogs who have troulbe reading my long post without any main points to it. I will give myself 10/30 for this blog entry.
Oh ya! Suddenly thought of something I can finally include in my blog.
I have read quite a lot of blogs.. ranging from joyful to unhappiness. Studying can be joyful and fulfilling, while some others deem it as personally undesirable and imposes a negative externality on oneself, that is, unhappiness and frustration.
Isn't it just life? And since everyone that we know of now are mostly going through the 12years of education. You can spend the 12 years of your life enjoying what you really like to do, hang out with your classmates and friends, enjoy the process of enriching yourself with knowledge of your interest. Alternatively, you can waste the 12years cursing and swearing at how suck the education system is, or be a victim of this education system in singapore and not do anything out of it.
If the things given to you are the way it is, the least you could do is make the best out of it. We can complain all we want but at the end of the day, you are the one making the difference out of the education system in singapore. You don't have to be perfect in everything, nor be the top scorer of the school. With this education system, you need to find out what your interest is and really is. We are provided with many different kinds of CCAs to try out and see where our interests lie.
I am seriously thinking that I am talking like some pro-singapore education system person. Honestly, I am practically fine anything.. Unless it is really something I dont like.. Else I think I am "easy going" and fine with anything.
"easy going" makes you think that I have a good character right? Haha.. I think it is just that I am lazy to make decisions and I, hate to make decision. I have repeated that a lot of times already.. I confess that I am one who dont really have much of my personal opinion, like, always going with the flow. A very sui bian kind of person..
Ok enough self commenting. Sometimes I dont really understand myself also..
On a brighter note, today's band prac is kind of a funny but also quite sian one.. went slightly late today.. but it doesnt really make a diff since they are just preparing for warm ups, did the snare part today instead of the usual bass drum in the morning. I am actually quite proud of myself, now that i can play a more stable speed, though sometimes still slightly off, especially changing of the strokes, ya but overall, I made improvements! haha, :D
Then after that is tuning.. its super boring for percussion so I went downstairs and take my cards and we started playing outside the percussion room (which is at the back of the music room). Played some games before Teng En (our dear student conductor) came and ask us go in. and its like we are super scared coz later he confiscate or what.. haha, but i think he got see lor.. just that he didn't really want to say anything..
ya then after that is going through of the songs and sight reading of some new pieces, so skip.
Went home at about 720+pm, met damien (the only J1 tuba player now) as usual. Exchanged some ku shui on how it can be boring to be always playing the baseline and accompaniment all the time. I think percussion is not so bad.. sometimes mallets get to solo and play the melody.. its the auxilaries (cymbals, etc) that is more boring.. but, everyone instrument has its own role to play in a band. Without tuba and drums, everything feels weird because there is no baseline to refer to when you play. Without auxiliary, it just feels that something is missing from the whole piece. It is the mixing of accompaniment and the melody that makes the whole piece complete and nice.. er, duh? seems that I am repeating something obvious?
sorry for all the rambling of events and my use of english.. Since its a blog so i dont really want to care about my english and whatever topic sentence there is. Apologise in advance to dear readers of my blogs who have troulbe reading my long post without any main points to it. I will give myself 10/30 for this blog entry.
Oh ya! Suddenly thought of something I can finally include in my blog.
guess whose shoes are those! Haha, one of the shoe is size 11.5, while the other is only around 8. the small shoe belongs to audrey! and this is a picture of her
Isn't she cute? :)
[if you still dont get it, she is the gorilla/monkey/chimpanzee/audrey in the photo]
disclaimer: This is just for the fun of it, no personal offences intended =)
just some of the random shots of today and a few days ago.. Definitely I can try to put more images into my blogs now. I think its a good way of enlightening my blog. haha, yay, tomorrow shall go out, to where? don't ask me, ask OCBC.
Lets see first la hor? :P
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Thursday, August 17, 2006
Just taking yet another break from studying maths. Just finished revision exercises for differentiation and i seriously hope they are enough...
but of course they are not. You never expect what will come out from a test and according to xin wei, that is the most exciting and exhilirating part of the test..
Not a bad way of thought, at least that doesnt make tests so sian and at least, something to look forward to and have fun?
Lots of things happen, some swift past me like nothing has happened, while some leaves stains all over me. Just like the NS talk we had yesterday. After listening to everything, i am in a complete dilemma. I am a little tramautized by the physical training part, but i think it will be ok over time. What matters most is that...
I dont have the sense of belonging.
Having come to singapore in primary 4, neither do i have a very fun childhood, nor any strong feeling to taiwan. The only place that I have my friends is in singapore. but this statement is being shaken again and again.
Where do I truly belong?
Seriously, I hate making decisions. In a way, I am afraid of facing the consequence of making a wrong decision. Lack of risk-taking courage? Yes. Everything must think over and over again then i will make a decision. However, most of the time the pros and cons of a decision is about the same. Then I will end up in a bad mood because I dont know wha to do. Quite noob huh..
Just like my mother ask me whether I want to do NS here, i replied yes because i dont want to do in taiwan. But coming to think of it. why did i actually said yes in the first place? Is Singapore really the place I want to stay in the future? Will I even be moving out to other countries in the future? what if I go back to taiwan? There are just so much to consider, and I for one do not follow my heart most of the time. What I would do is think and think and think and I will end up in nowhere. So that is why I got a little moody after the NS briefing. Time will come, and in the end, I still have to make a decision. I am just very confused, of what I really want, or what do I really expect of myself to be?
I am lost, so lost..
but of course they are not. You never expect what will come out from a test and according to xin wei, that is the most exciting and exhilirating part of the test..
Not a bad way of thought, at least that doesnt make tests so sian and at least, something to look forward to and have fun?
Lots of things happen, some swift past me like nothing has happened, while some leaves stains all over me. Just like the NS talk we had yesterday. After listening to everything, i am in a complete dilemma. I am a little tramautized by the physical training part, but i think it will be ok over time. What matters most is that...
I dont have the sense of belonging.
Having come to singapore in primary 4, neither do i have a very fun childhood, nor any strong feeling to taiwan. The only place that I have my friends is in singapore. but this statement is being shaken again and again.
Where do I truly belong?
Seriously, I hate making decisions. In a way, I am afraid of facing the consequence of making a wrong decision. Lack of risk-taking courage? Yes. Everything must think over and over again then i will make a decision. However, most of the time the pros and cons of a decision is about the same. Then I will end up in a bad mood because I dont know wha to do. Quite noob huh..
Just like my mother ask me whether I want to do NS here, i replied yes because i dont want to do in taiwan. But coming to think of it. why did i actually said yes in the first place? Is Singapore really the place I want to stay in the future? Will I even be moving out to other countries in the future? what if I go back to taiwan? There are just so much to consider, and I for one do not follow my heart most of the time. What I would do is think and think and think and I will end up in nowhere. So that is why I got a little moody after the NS briefing. Time will come, and in the end, I still have to make a decision. I am just very confused, of what I really want, or what do I really expect of myself to be?
I am lost, so lost..
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Monday, August 14, 2006
Week 8, 43 days to promos
I just realised how "much" time I have, averaging that out would be 10days to study for each subjects excluding gp.
Seems a lot? but the fact is..
We barely even have the time to start mugging. its only until september holidays then we can get into the mugging mood and mug like crazy.
But that would leave us with 20+ days to study. Too short, and with all the distractions...
It seems that future is bleak.
I managed to get the capriccio XXII recordings from yihuang last friday. I really love the pieces, and somemore played by us, heehee, and I managed to spot my mistakes, haha, feels damn weird. but overall, it sounded ok actually! some hiccups in some of the harder pieces, but listening to our own music gives us a different feeling than listening to musics played by others. The sense of satisfaction and accomplishment? Too bad they dont have the drum line recording.. Better practise hard and help with the rest in SYF, instead of a burden to them. Afterall, it is a band, not solo. Everyone has a part to play and together it will sound nice and that is the way it should be. :D
Have been celebrating people's birthday lately and got quite high thanks to audrey and yan zhi for sacrificing themselves to entertain everyone! Amongst this period of time a good laughter and fun is the way to ease up the stress after studying. Hope that they have a memorable birthday and enjoy their presents! :D
The class videos are still with me, waiting to be edited? Haha, lets just wait after promos, then we will sort out everything to make one complete video so that everyone can watch. Starring would be audrey, terence heng, xin wei and benjamin? Haha, lets just look forward to it after the promos!
oh btw, the ***** lecturer sucks, even yq says so too. some teachers are like that, cannot teach. No matter how hard they try, things just wont go through. Sigh, why do we have to get this kind of teacher? =X i hope we dont die for ***** test in week 10. Be independent! study on our own, luckily it is a subject thta can self study.
Yup , i guess that is all the time I have for today. doesnt seem to have an aim in this blog, so i just blog whatever random thoughts that come into my mind, hopefully that doesnt make this blog entry seems to aimless and meaningless, just like my mood now.
I just realised how "much" time I have, averaging that out would be 10days to study for each subjects excluding gp.
Seems a lot? but the fact is..
We barely even have the time to start mugging. its only until september holidays then we can get into the mugging mood and mug like crazy.
But that would leave us with 20+ days to study. Too short, and with all the distractions...
It seems that future is bleak.
I managed to get the capriccio XXII recordings from yihuang last friday. I really love the pieces, and somemore played by us, heehee, and I managed to spot my mistakes, haha, feels damn weird. but overall, it sounded ok actually! some hiccups in some of the harder pieces, but listening to our own music gives us a different feeling than listening to musics played by others. The sense of satisfaction and accomplishment? Too bad they dont have the drum line recording.. Better practise hard and help with the rest in SYF, instead of a burden to them. Afterall, it is a band, not solo. Everyone has a part to play and together it will sound nice and that is the way it should be. :D
Have been celebrating people's birthday lately and got quite high thanks to audrey and yan zhi for sacrificing themselves to entertain everyone! Amongst this period of time a good laughter and fun is the way to ease up the stress after studying. Hope that they have a memorable birthday and enjoy their presents! :D
The class videos are still with me, waiting to be edited? Haha, lets just wait after promos, then we will sort out everything to make one complete video so that everyone can watch. Starring would be audrey, terence heng, xin wei and benjamin? Haha, lets just look forward to it after the promos!
oh btw, the ***** lecturer sucks, even yq says so too. some teachers are like that, cannot teach. No matter how hard they try, things just wont go through. Sigh, why do we have to get this kind of teacher? =X i hope we dont die for ***** test in week 10. Be independent! study on our own, luckily it is a subject thta can self study.
Yup , i guess that is all the time I have for today. doesnt seem to have an aim in this blog, so i just blog whatever random thoughts that come into my mind, hopefully that doesnt make this blog entry seems to aimless and meaningless, just like my mood now.
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Wednesday, August 09, 2006
It is 1025pm..
I am supposed to go to sleep. I am so tired coz of going out and sleeping late these days...
Today practically did nothing, coz i am so drowsy and i cant do a thing coz i cant concentrate.
Econs ILP
PW
Maths Tutorial
Loads of physics concepts to catch up
+ lots of things to learn in band
I just realised that I am freaking depending on the music to play my parts in band. We are supposed to be counting the beat and play the rythms or notes.. but I am trying to listen to the music and hopefully I can play the note or beat correctly.
That is why my sight reading is F9, or rather, G10. And maybe, that is the reason why I am always playing mallets, because I can listen to the original music and play.
I suck at counting 1-e-n-a 2-e-n-a 3-e-n-a 4. I am stuck at 1-n 2-n 3-n 4. Even that has problems counting already.
Strangely, I thought of auditionsea suddenly.
I am lagging others in terms of skills for 4 years, I have to accomplish what others did for the past years in secondary schools in 2 years. Starting isnt too hard, christi and I am able to achieve what others did in 1 1/2 years, we just need more practise and work doubly and triply harder than the rest. But things will get tougher. It is easy to learn, but mastery is the most difficult part. But I believe with passion and enthusiasm, we can do a good job next year. For me, I believe the most important thing is the will and want to do it, things i dont like to do, its very hard to get me to do.
again, this post seems to becoming a little repetitive of the past posts.
Talking about what happened yesterday, it was another special occasion for me. I seldom go my friend's house, and yesterday, some of our classmates went to ben tan's house. We had fun playing mahjong (=X), we dont gamble so we play just chips. in the end, i think i lost more than i gain.. heehee, then we had fun watching ben tan pranking everyone on xinwei's msn buddy list. And we (the guys) went naughty and scared the girls (xin wei, audrey and wen qian) they got a little unhappy that I feel bad myself, haiz, everytime feel bad but i dont do anything to change it. Argh, i must be more sensitive to others' feeling from now on. It is EQ. EQ!
Tomorrow gonna be a busy day, have PW, econs ilp to work on. somemore tutorials yet to be finished.
Its gonna be the end of week 7 very soon. Soon, very soon, its gonna be promos. Time passes very quickly.. so quickly, too quickly! There seems to be no time to waste anymore, stop persuading yourself that there is still time! Now, run along! Don't let your future go to waste!
I am supposed to go to sleep. I am so tired coz of going out and sleeping late these days...
Today practically did nothing, coz i am so drowsy and i cant do a thing coz i cant concentrate.
Econs ILP
PW
Maths Tutorial
Loads of physics concepts to catch up
+ lots of things to learn in band
I just realised that I am freaking depending on the music to play my parts in band. We are supposed to be counting the beat and play the rythms or notes.. but I am trying to listen to the music and hopefully I can play the note or beat correctly.
That is why my sight reading is F9, or rather, G10. And maybe, that is the reason why I am always playing mallets, because I can listen to the original music and play.
I suck at counting 1-e-n-a 2-e-n-a 3-e-n-a 4. I am stuck at 1-n 2-n 3-n 4. Even that has problems counting already.
Strangely, I thought of auditionsea suddenly.
I am lagging others in terms of skills for 4 years, I have to accomplish what others did for the past years in secondary schools in 2 years. Starting isnt too hard, christi and I am able to achieve what others did in 1 1/2 years, we just need more practise and work doubly and triply harder than the rest. But things will get tougher. It is easy to learn, but mastery is the most difficult part. But I believe with passion and enthusiasm, we can do a good job next year. For me, I believe the most important thing is the will and want to do it, things i dont like to do, its very hard to get me to do.
again, this post seems to becoming a little repetitive of the past posts.
Talking about what happened yesterday, it was another special occasion for me. I seldom go my friend's house, and yesterday, some of our classmates went to ben tan's house. We had fun playing mahjong (=X), we dont gamble so we play just chips. in the end, i think i lost more than i gain.. heehee, then we had fun watching ben tan pranking everyone on xinwei's msn buddy list. And we (the guys) went naughty and scared the girls (xin wei, audrey and wen qian) they got a little unhappy that I feel bad myself, haiz, everytime feel bad but i dont do anything to change it. Argh, i must be more sensitive to others' feeling from now on. It is EQ. EQ!
Tomorrow gonna be a busy day, have PW, econs ilp to work on. somemore tutorials yet to be finished.
Its gonna be the end of week 7 very soon. Soon, very soon, its gonna be promos. Time passes very quickly.. so quickly, too quickly! There seems to be no time to waste anymore, stop persuading yourself that there is still time! Now, run along! Don't let your future go to waste!
sharkfin fullstopped here
Monday, August 07, 2006
wah, just realised this is the 100th post since the blog started in secondary school!
but that just show how inactive i am in the blog at some point of my life.
tomorrow is national day celebrations, means i am slacking now. Suddenly feel so free now, hehe, so decided to blog.
Life has never been slow since the start of JC. Since I have found myself a new CCA, and a group of friends in the class that we have fun every now and then, it seems that there hasn't be any peace for myself.
Just like what happened on saturday, we washed more people than washing the cars. Everyone is just drenched, soaked, wet to the bones. It was damn fun, though the birthday girl has sort of expected that. It ended up like a water fight. Cries everywhere, which leads to some neighbours complaining to the police and they have to come and investigate. We apologised to the organising comittee, as one of them has her name taken down. Hopefully she will be alright..
So, wet, cold, yet still very high, we walked our way to westmall, wearing our dripping clothes (oops, not that bad la, haha). We get changed, and coincidentally, yanmin, ben and I wore the colour green, yellow, and red colour T-shirt, which look exactly like a walking traffic light. A thousand thanks to ben tan for treating everyone to arcade on xin wei's birthday! Seriously, no pun intended :p anyway, we had lots of fun, which is beyong description in the arcade, took lots of videos, super funny ones, like the audrey with her rapidraft (or whichever that game is called) and some air hockey featuring ben and xin wei again! Terence Heng and his para para! haha, it was really funny to play! Next shall be audrey and yan zhi's birthday on friday! Everyone would be charged up during the national day holiday, so get ready for another round of party on friday! haha :P
However, despite of having all the fun, I am starting to miss my peaceful weekends. I have been so used to going home early and slacking at home in secondary school.. seriously, it is time to really settle down, and catch up whatever I am lagging behind, especially for physics. Maths and econs not too bad. GP.. hm.. what to do? only thingk you can do is think more, read more, write more intelligent stuffs.
I guess that is all the time I have for today. Gotta sleep soon, most likely tomorrow going out to friend's house.. play? or watch movie? don't know, welfare rep! haha, :P
yup, that is all, let me forget about my work for a while and enjoy tomorrow before embarking on the mugging mode.
but that just show how inactive i am in the blog at some point of my life.
tomorrow is national day celebrations, means i am slacking now. Suddenly feel so free now, hehe, so decided to blog.
Life has never been slow since the start of JC. Since I have found myself a new CCA, and a group of friends in the class that we have fun every now and then, it seems that there hasn't be any peace for myself.
Just like what happened on saturday, we washed more people than washing the cars. Everyone is just drenched, soaked, wet to the bones. It was damn fun, though the birthday girl has sort of expected that. It ended up like a water fight. Cries everywhere, which leads to some neighbours complaining to the police and they have to come and investigate. We apologised to the organising comittee, as one of them has her name taken down. Hopefully she will be alright..
So, wet, cold, yet still very high, we walked our way to westmall, wearing our dripping clothes (oops, not that bad la, haha). We get changed, and coincidentally, yanmin, ben and I wore the colour green, yellow, and red colour T-shirt, which look exactly like a walking traffic light. A thousand thanks to ben tan for treating everyone to arcade on xin wei's birthday! Seriously, no pun intended :p anyway, we had lots of fun, which is beyong description in the arcade, took lots of videos, super funny ones, like the audrey with her rapidraft (or whichever that game is called) and some air hockey featuring ben and xin wei again! Terence Heng and his para para! haha, it was really funny to play! Next shall be audrey and yan zhi's birthday on friday! Everyone would be charged up during the national day holiday, so get ready for another round of party on friday! haha :P
However, despite of having all the fun, I am starting to miss my peaceful weekends. I have been so used to going home early and slacking at home in secondary school.. seriously, it is time to really settle down, and catch up whatever I am lagging behind, especially for physics. Maths and econs not too bad. GP.. hm.. what to do? only thingk you can do is think more, read more, write more intelligent stuffs.
I guess that is all the time I have for today. Gotta sleep soon, most likely tomorrow going out to friend's house.. play? or watch movie? don't know, welfare rep! haha, :P
yup, that is all, let me forget about my work for a while and enjoy tomorrow before embarking on the mugging mode.
sharkfin fullstopped here
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
When you have a lot of work to be completed, what would you do?
I would normally start with those I like, then soon, i will realise that I am left with stuffs like:
EoM
Maths Assignment
Physics Tutorial
...
I know that EoM is due long ago, but I just cant get myself to start working on it. The thought of the dreadful MRP is back. I still remember how I hate doing Lit Review and the main paper. I remembered that I hand in like 6 weeks late for my Lit Review and I am deducted for quite a lot of marks for it. In the end, I got a fail for my Lit Review (which is equivalent to EoM)
I just cant get myself to do something that I dont like, just like my attitude with my previous CCA in high school.
When things get sian, you dont wanna do it, and the more u dont do it, the lousier u get and the more sian you become. Sound like a vicious cycle and it is very hard to pull yourself out of it.
I am completing the assignments, for the sake of the marks, for the sake of completing my education on something that I dont intend to have any relationship with in my future.
Of course I dont hate every single subject in school. I just cant get myself to like sports, humanities, and research.
Very tough
Don't worry about me, I am just venting my frustration and stress on this blog. Ironically, I am working on destressing and I am here, getting all stressed up because I am researching ways to help people to distress.
This is dumb
I can fall asleep the moment i start reading the book i borrow from the library. I can fall asleep as soon as i step into GP lessons. I can really doze off in a physics lab experiment.
But sometimes things are not the way you want it. If we are given all these, then we have to work our ways around it. Discover the interesting aspects of whatever you are doing. That way you can focus less on the boring parts of the work and hopefully, you can absorb better when you are in a happier mood.
But then, again, it is easier said than being done.
Things wont be completed overnight, assignments wont be completed after you wake up. You MAY reap, what you actually sow.
I would normally start with those I like, then soon, i will realise that I am left with stuffs like:
EoM
Maths Assignment
Physics Tutorial
...
I know that EoM is due long ago, but I just cant get myself to start working on it. The thought of the dreadful MRP is back. I still remember how I hate doing Lit Review and the main paper. I remembered that I hand in like 6 weeks late for my Lit Review and I am deducted for quite a lot of marks for it. In the end, I got a fail for my Lit Review (which is equivalent to EoM)
I just cant get myself to do something that I dont like, just like my attitude with my previous CCA in high school.
When things get sian, you dont wanna do it, and the more u dont do it, the lousier u get and the more sian you become. Sound like a vicious cycle and it is very hard to pull yourself out of it.
I am completing the assignments, for the sake of the marks, for the sake of completing my education on something that I dont intend to have any relationship with in my future.
Of course I dont hate every single subject in school. I just cant get myself to like sports, humanities, and research.
Very tough
Don't worry about me, I am just venting my frustration and stress on this blog. Ironically, I am working on destressing and I am here, getting all stressed up because I am researching ways to help people to distress.
This is dumb
I can fall asleep the moment i start reading the book i borrow from the library. I can fall asleep as soon as i step into GP lessons. I can really doze off in a physics lab experiment.
But sometimes things are not the way you want it. If we are given all these, then we have to work our ways around it. Discover the interesting aspects of whatever you are doing. That way you can focus less on the boring parts of the work and hopefully, you can absorb better when you are in a happier mood.
But then, again, it is easier said than being done.
Things wont be completed overnight, assignments wont be completed after you wake up. You MAY reap, what you actually sow.
sharkfin fullstopped here